Some things aren’t worth the effort; some people aren’t worth the pain.
My heart can no longer stand the stabs, my mind can no longer stand the wait, my soul can no longer understand.
It’s time for me to start anew.
I’m tired of all the fake friendships, the fake relationships, the unrealistically skewed reality. It’s time for me to figure out my worth, on my own and for myself. You can just watch from where you are and remain intangible.
I’m going to undo these shackles around my ankles, stand up and walk forward. It’s time to grow up, live up and try hard.
I woke up at 6AM, 2.5 hours earlier than I was planning on because someone was playing the piano in my room. I look up from my bed, thinking it was my mom, but I don’t see anyone. I try going back to sleep. Wake up again because I hear the piano being played, I look up and really focus this time and see there is an orange cat, just sitting on my piano bench playing piano.
You can wake up in the morning, put on your make up, get dressed, do your whole morning routine. Walk out of your room, never forgetting to put on your fake smile. Fool your family, fool your friends, fool the people you’ve never met. Keep fooling, getting by in this life full of fools - but ultimately, you’re the biggest fool of all.
You can shove a lie onto the exterior, but it will never hide the truth within the interior. You’re only fooling yourself.